I don't know. I know someone on this forum has. It doesn't have to be a abusive-batshit crazy relationship to relate to how I feel about my most recent one. It lasted two years and I ended up leaving in the end but ugh, I still have these days where I sit down and write this stuff. I've written alot lately but I shared this with a friend and they really approved and thought many more could relate. Poems often exaggerate how awful it was because of it being pure emotion but it's one of my best. I hate you. Tearing at all my self-esteem and pride, every night that long war, the constant reminder of weakness. What a monster you were, what a child I became. Taking every punch and keeping all your secrets. "Hide it all underneath oversized shirts and sweaters. Here's a some loratabs! That'll make it fade for now. Stop crying, get that hurt expression off your face. If you don't shut up soon enough, i'll show you how." What did I do? Was I an answer to all of your pain? Just another person to kick about for entertainment. I remember all of the screaming and daily petty insults. and I tear my heart to pieces out of my pure hatred. I hate you. I hate you so much. You cruel bastard. I hate you for every sick twisted thing you did to me. Every time you rendered me helpess in public places Every time you stopped me when I wanted to leave. Every time I begged you to change and you submitted then went back to your twisted **** the next minute. I hate you for making me forget who i really was inside, mixing me up with all these opinions and stereotypes. Telling me I was never good enough for anyone else, and trashing every good thing about myself I ever felt. I hate you *name removed*. I even ****ing hate your name. I remember screaming begging you stop and wake up. I remember saying it outloud crying all those nights. Just begging god or someone just to help you change. I hate you for making me fall in love with you back then. I hate the fact no matter what you've done i always will. That hateful face that gives me nightmares every night, Will always be perfection to me no matter how I feel. I hate you because I know I would do anything for you, no matter what you've said or who you have screwed. I hate you for the tears that are appearing on my face. For every line of hatred in this poem I write as they fall. I ****ing hate you more than i've hated anyone in my life.. because I know i'll never be able to hate you all.