Creative Writing Ever had a really batsh*t relationship?

I don't know. I know someone on this forum has. It doesn't have to be a abusive-batshit crazy relationship to relate to how I feel about my most recent one. It lasted two years and I ended up leaving in the end but ugh, I still have these days where I sit down and write this stuff. I've written alot lately but I shared this with a friend and they really approved and thought many more could relate. Poems often exaggerate how awful it was because of it being pure emotion but it's one of my best.

I hate you.
Tearing at all my self-esteem and pride, every night
that long war, the constant reminder of weakness.
What a monster you were, what a child I became.
Taking every punch and keeping all your secrets.
"Hide it all underneath oversized shirts and sweaters.
Here's a some loratabs! That'll make it fade for now.
Stop crying, get that hurt expression off your face.
If you don't shut up soon enough, i'll show you how."
What did I do? Was I an answer to all of your pain?
Just another person to kick about for entertainment.
I remember all of the screaming and daily petty insults.
and I tear my heart to pieces out of my pure hatred.
I hate you. I hate you so much. You cruel bastard.
I hate you for every sick twisted thing you did to me.
Every time you rendered me helpess in public places
Every time you stopped me when I wanted to leave.
Every time I begged you to change and you submitted
then went back to your twisted **** the next minute.
I hate you for making me forget who i really was inside,
mixing me up with all these opinions and stereotypes.
Telling me I was never good enough for anyone else,
and trashing every good thing about myself I ever felt.
I hate you *name removed*. I even ****ing hate your name.
I remember screaming begging you stop and wake up.
I remember saying it outloud crying all those nights.
Just begging god or someone just to help you change.
I hate you for making me fall in love with you back then.
I hate the fact no matter what you've done i always will.
That hateful face that gives me nightmares every night,
Will always be perfection to me no matter how I feel.
I hate you because I know I would do anything for you,
no matter what you've said or who you have screwed.
I hate you for the tears that are appearing on my face.
For every line of hatred in this poem I write as they fall.
I ****ing hate you more than i've hated anyone in my life..
because I know i'll never be able to hate you all.

 

This poetry sent nourishment to the mind of me who was shouldering the wound.

 

Thanks I write happy poems once in awhile about relationships but i get bored with them. They aren't as interesting because there are so many.

 

I read twice without using the translation software.　
I know about you a little,because so, I feel direct Feelings of you obedient, so, I think that it is the one without even the change the expression of which poem the sadness of you to the bottom exist.

 

Nice it's like I hate you but I can't or don't really.

Nice one. Peachy. Not to Emo.