Well.. 1 The first time I ever smoked a cig was in 2nd grade when I lived in Liberty. 2 Pot was when I was in 5th grade. 3 I wonder a lot why I do drugs and such, but then I relize it is the only thing that makes me happy anymore. 4 I hate my life. I act happy a lot, but I can't remember the last time I was truely happy. 5 My parents think I am crazy and they dislike me because I am gay. 6 I tried killing myself by taking rat poisen. 7 I am not a heavy drinker, but I like to take shots. 8 I am always in a better mood on rainy days. 9 I really don't have much emotion, it is there.. but I don't feel it. ( So hard to explain I really don't think anyone could understand it.) 10 I am an all A student, but I have fears I am going to try so hard and never do anything with my life. 11 I still cut, just in places most can't see now. 12 Most people think I am a crazy and usually happy person. 13 I have dreams about the end of the world. 14 I am a lifeguard. 15 I am usually not in the right state of mind when I post latly. LOL True story, can't remember a sober post in a while.