Holy crap..

eh... Me and Tyler Cardwell are buddying up.. way more than we used to. He sat next to me on the bus and has assigned seat there now. Hes been asking me alot of questions about how we broke up and all. A LONG time ago..it was just bleh.. i felt weird we he told me he loved me that time. And it just..kekekek well his mother always is like shes the cutiest little bad girl honey i ever seen. He apparently thinks so too.

Well anyway, ive been taking my atheletic ability farther. Ive always been teh best! Im not bragging..or fibbing. Im ripped and everyone knows it. Thats the reason most guys dont like me.. i can kick their asses. Well Suvannah was like! "WILL YOU PAY ATTENTION(to the girls talking) LOOK AT TIFFANY! SHES DOING IT ALL BY HERSELF!". Volleyball isnt easy.. at all.. man youve got to hit it just the right way. Im trying out for it this year, and trying to get back on the basketball and tennis team. Ive been working so hard to better myself, cuz im so sick of everyone saying that i cant do much..when im way smarter than most people i just dont care. I got my progress reports today.. 95.0, 80.0, 100.0, 90.0, 94.32(or something,) and the rest the grades cant stand since ive been gone for so long. My mom. actaully treated me like a human being..i mean she hugged me and told me that was the "Shelia in me" Yea..right.. just cuz my daddy was a bad guy doesnt mean he wasnt one of the most known people in Brewton.. and not for being trash. Ive never ever been called or been used in the term of "trash" its always been.. druggie and hoe. I guess its ok though. Their not calling me the whole thing..

heh.. Gensai and me argued bad last night...i hate it, im about to stop coming online so much. Tyler has somehow started making my life easier. He listens like Micheal did.. and hes gone do i guess that was my reason to be miserable. *tears* poor guy.. lost his mom and his dad almost to the drug dealers. I pity him.. and Tyler isnt any better off. His mom that i like so much and likes me is too.. but shes to the extreme. Many of the stuff i got in trouble for i got from her. for free most the time....ayes...im tired..

im sorry im writng so much, i have alot on my mind..im not a satanist you guys..evil..pain..its all there, but i wish to just not believe in anything but knowing that theres nice people and evil people..even though i absolutely loved being demonic for awhile there. It was a thrill, but it made people look at me like i was a child murderer. And i dont like hurting people like that, i just fend for myself and let people get what they deserve. Im atheist and thats it and ill be that way from now on. though there will be times when i may go all physco again ill never does some of those things again..they were cruel.. they were insane. some things if i was a christian.. that "god" would hate me for..burning bibles.. everything..i never want to go back to that madness again. I guess i was being a "stupid female" again..

well..im really tired..night night people..

+ Blue +

 

God never hates. He loves and cares. He forgives a lot worse and accepts them as well. IM not going to shove anything on you. But still what you believe you believe.. Freewill..something no other thing on this earth posses except us.

 

i guess things are turning out for u sweet