I feel sorry for myself

I finally was able to touch my journal.. I have been studying like crazy trying to keep my grades as they are or take them higher. I am very satisfied with my grade. My major's minimum grade is 2 out of 4, mine is 2.58. Its pretty good. My mom -as usual- is not satifyed. I have been under alot of pressure, but seems no one knows what I am going through except my friends who suffer the same as well..

Sometimes I wish I could die or just simply get married and stay at home (that is if my husband had enough money to support).

I have 3 out of 5 major subjects this course. And all of them are either tough by new teachers or ones who know nothing or both! So it is pretty hard for me..

One of the majors is Management Information System (MIS). It is a very hard subject and lots of things to memorise. The system in my major is that the cordinator puts the questions and the rest of the lecturers either agree to the questions or disagree. My lecturer and my friend's both said that they looked at the exam and warned us about it being very very difficult. Afterwards, there were lots of failur in it. In our class the average was less than 50 out of 80, but the original grade was out of 40. I mean, hello!! If you saw that the test was freakishly difficult do some freaking changes!!

I got 27.5 out of 40 before the curve up, and after it I got 30. I am kind of pleased, even though that I was aiming at getting high grades at my majors *sigh*

That's not all.. we have a 15% project and assignment ?% to do, and since we have a lab assistance, she takes the grades directly to the cordinator and the cordinator approves them and they go directly to part of our total grade. Beside the fact that out lab assistace is a tottal bitch, I hate her. And I am probably going to make that clear to her when I gradute. Because if I told her now, she might teach me again in an another subject, so I better wait instead of her failing me in things I never did.

My friend doesn't has a lab assistance, so their lecturer is teaching them during lab classes. To make up for the huge amount of failur in the class, he is giving them all the 15% of the project and the assignments. *sigh*

I wish ours does the same, but because she knows what we went through because she was a student once, she tells us to "hang in there". Bitch.

She never helps, all she does is bossing us around and treating us like shit. She never understands that I had tests to do that it stopped me from delivering the 1st and 2nd assignments. Thanks to my friend, she added my name in her 2nd assignment. We have 5 assignments. 3 points to each assignment. So I definetly lost 3 points now, God knows how much I lost now from the other assignments. I hate her I hate her I hate her I hate her I hate her I hate her!!

 

Wow, you actually read all of that??!
Thanks

I just received tooma's late (;p) present, I feel better now ^^
There is nothing like presents to make you feel good!!
But still, when then effect of the present fades, I'll feel sorry for myself again *sigh*

*runs to open the present*