I have everything I could wish for....so why do I feel so......empty?

*Sigh* the title pretty much says it all. Oh my goodness, oh my goodness....I just noticed I have no shrink!! I haven't talk to him in days now......gosh I miss him. If anyone could make me feel better it'd be him. I could just write my heart out about stupid crap like this. I suffer from a slight case of occasional OCD<<seriously, no joking. I get mad then fustrated and i hate fustration, so i....arrrgh. I have abunch of thoughts just floating around in my fishbowl. lets see if i can narrate it...

so happy.....so empty.....wanting......waiting.......love......deception...trust....heart.....dead.....don't you remember you told me you loved me.........sister&brother......weird........hanging on.......perfect yet not perfect.....jealous....angry....abusive.......darkness.......you promised you'd wait for me....crying.....cutting.....kisses..............friendship


i told you it was a jumbled mess....>.< I miss my shrink, my real friend, my boyfriend, and my brother.........heh, i'm weird. Not preppy!!!!! I dig in the dirt and play with worms, i splash in puddled, and i have imagination, and real friends, and....i'm sorry but i took that offinsively, i know screw it. I'm tired of apologizing when i've done nothing wrong......I feel a WW3 coming on.

Hopefully not.


Screw you!
Hacker

 

Re: I have everything I could wish for....so why do I feel so...

Hey, I understand how you feel. I'm no shrink, but have you noticed that you never mentioned your parents in your post? It's something to think about. Some times, when someone doesn't feel loved by your parents, he/she feels lonely and miserable.

I'm sure you have some wounds (you can call them &quot;issues&quot; if you like) in your mind/soul/whatever, perhaps you should work on them?

Anyway *hugz*