I really hate this ******!

I dont know about this, but everytime I try to point out the bad person they seem to get out of their shells and "BLEH" everything out. I know whats gonna happen next. It's just like back at school. I always got betrayed and steped all over, or other bad things. After what I'm about to do the same things back to them just like what they did to me, they become the *innocent* person from there and make everyone go against me. So then the finger points back at me making it seem like I made that person like that and now I'm the bad person. It kicks me right on the ass. I cant even have my fun and play those little immature mind games, I mean that's not fair at all. Why should I be steped all over and get kicked around with feelings? I'm just too damn nice to people that they take advantage of me. Well, I dont know if I can hate someone, but I can say "dislike" that person A LOT! I hope this bull S*** doesnt happen to me again or I will defitnaly do something real BAD! I just cant let these so called friends that say crap behind your back get away from this and point that finger at me like I'm some kind of demon. OOH NO WAY! NOT THIS TIME! It's mine turn to do that favor back and really make someone hate you...............no....wait.....I think I'am a bad person.........or I'm not? damn, now I got myself all confused....dang, not agaiin please......damn, now I'm thinking if I really got saved......or was it just in my mind the entire time?..................ARUGH! I dont want to go back there...........I think I should go now.......