i thought!!

I know my life isn't getting any better but heres a poem I wrote
I really haven't been doing well lately..
I thought
I thought I heard you speak to me the other day
I looked everywhere in the crowd
But I couldn't call out to you
So i just whispered your name out loud

I thought I seen you walking
By my bedroom door last night
I had wanted so bad to see you again
But I couldn't bring myself to turn on the light

I thought I felt your embace
Outside walking in the cold
I wanted so bad to touch you again
But when I turned around there was no one to hold

I thought about you and missed you
On this sad lonely day
I tried to turn around and kiss you
But your memories just faded away

I miss someone so much..I mean the way they used to be..the person who was my best friend..who came to my dads funeral and beat up Ben for punching me...Where is he now
what has happened to the only person who helped me make it through the world without
going insane..where are you why have you changed into this person who doesn't care>>