I'm a typical fan-girl!

I'm writing this entry and i only have 10 mins to get ready from uni. *I'm far from ready, still in the PJ's*
Bleach is killing me. It's turning my brain into mush! T____T I love the characters. I don't want to feel this way, but really all i think about is BLEACH. I need a doctor lol.
When I'm in the early morning train on my way to uni, and all of a sudden i start thinking about Bleach: couples, theories, good posts. As a result, I start smiling... Everybody in the train is really not in the mood: some with grumpy faces, some showing lack of sleep, fatigue etc... For me to sit there and smile is the last thing they need. I end up telling myself to wipe that smile off, think of something sad. No use...
I really don't want to be a crazy fan-girl, I'm don't want to melt/faint/Squee/die everytime something happens in Bleach: I don't want my blood pressure to rise, my heart to stop etc.
But then, that means I have to stop following the manga and anime. I can't do that... Is it normal to be a fan-girl?
Ack, 5 mins to get ready, and I'm still in my PJ's. I'm going to be late, TwT did i mention that it takes me ages to get ready T_T;;;? God, please help me help myself.