Im Feeling weak.

this is exactly how I feel right now.


Is anybody listening?
Can they hear me when I call?
I'm shooting signals in the air
'Cause I need somebody's help
I can't make it on my own
So I'm giving up myself
Is anybody listening?
Listening

I'll be standing here and I'm miles away
Making signals hoping they'd save me
I lock myself inside these walls
'Cause out there I'm always wrong
I don't think I'm gonna make it
So while I'm sitting here
On the eve of my death bed
I'll write this letter and hope it saves me

Is anybody listening?
Can they hear me when I call?
Shooting signals in the air
'Cause I need somebody's help
I can't make it on my own
So I'm giving up myself
Is anybody listening?
Listening

I'm stuck in my own head and I'm oceans away
Would anybody notice if I chose to stay?
I'll send and SOS tonight
Wonder if I will survive
How in the hell did I get so far away this time
So now I'm sitting here
The time of my departure's near
I say a prayer
Please someone save me

Is anybody listening?
Can they hear me when I call?
Should I take notes in the end?
'Cause I need somebody's help
I can't make it on my own
So I'm giving up myself
Is anybody listening?
Listening

I'm lost here
I can't make it on my own
I don't wanna die alone
I'm so scared
Drowning now
Reaching out
Holding on to everything I love
Crying out
Dying now
Need some help

Is anybody listening?
Can you hear me when I call?
Shooting signals in the air
I need somebody's help
I can't make it on my own
So I'm giving up myself
Is anybody listening?

im confused, I think im slipping away from myself and becoming something im not. getting involved in things that will stress me out mentally, im not sure if im completely ready for another shut down. I'm starting to think that I think way to much for my own good. it's one of my reasons I write. To pour out my held in feelings of Emo frustration, affection, and depression. three things I refused to leg Angela see, wanted her to think I was strong and could handle anything. I was able to cope that way for a short while, and then I grew tired of writing. so now im slowly slipping back into the abyss of my mind to try and sort out my thought and link my emotions. Ever grew tired of people coming to you with their problems hoping, you could work some kind of miracle and fix them? Well im there. Im so fed up with fixing peoples problems or getting myself mixed up in other people shit because they ask me for help and refuse to try and change themselves if that

 

girl..im sorry for making your life any worse.i try my best to help ppl..but I guess your coming out and saying things like i finally was in my entry..your a great freind. Your always there. When I need you, you are there..even when some guy just treated me like nothing..ven my "lover" some times..^_-
plz try to keep your head up..ill try to help YOU!

 

Noodlechick, I'm here listening to you on whatever you have in your heart or your mind. I know that things can get tough and you getting all emotional with Bull S***. I guess Some or one of your friends might have triggered you pretty good cause that doesnt sound like you at all. We are not perfect, we may seem like we are happy and try to think on the bright side, but sometimes it just fails and doesnt work out. I know what you mean about you trying to help and fix other peoples probelms but you cannot make everyone happy at once or make everything peachy perfect for them. I know this because I have also been there before and that position. You may see life like that right now, but just wait a little longer and just try to stay away from everyones problems for once and think about yourself and what you been wanting to do for a very long time. I'm here to listen to you and how you feel. I care for you also. I can see that you are a good friend even though we have been talking to each other now. I think I'm here for a reason and that is to help my friends and how their feelings are. I'll try my very best to help you and I will reach out to you. I'm serious about this okay. so dont worry Sora is here for ya! ^_^

 

hey Noodle Noodle. remember Nightmare is on msn all the time and i don't mind taking time out to help my friends so don't be afraid to ask okay. im here for my friends so don't feel weak feel strong.