meh, sure whatever..

I wish I can help my friends that need help a lot in life.
I still miss my friends back home and I miss holding someone in my arms.
Just hugging tight and never letting go..
I grip your hand but you dont hold my hand back .....why?
Feeling so restless and useless everytime, it just seems like I really am
I fall in this hole that no one knows that it exist in real life
This back pain that I always have and do painful and never lettting go of me
I take a shower thinking I willl feel better....
nothing can make this pain go away and forever..
it just there...haunting me like I'm just its fresh meat every single day
eating me alive and it's so tourturing.
I have been just want it to go away and for it not to bother me again..
I wish and beg every night I sleep for that pain and depression to leave my soul alone and in peace...
This THING loves to play with me and my soul...
loves to say lies about other people and my friends
tries to go into my heart and to destory it..
Still...I fight this pain and I think forever I shall live with it for the rest of my life....I just wish my best friend is not feeling like this or any other people that I love so much....