MTIAC

fuck sakes my mum thinks i am a fuckin nutter.
only, ONLY coz i don't love her
So fuckin what, she dosen't pay me any attention always my fucking cousins who are LIVING with us and my bro.
Blames ME for stuff i don't even know about.
And how can i love her when i seen her look after my bros daughters and see that she never ever treated me like that.
come on it is not persessions that makes you be loved
its knoledge and understanding of one another.
she dosen't know a thing about me
and i hate when i bring up upsetting memories she just laughs at me
and haves the nerve to say they are fake

None of my tears are fake, their real coz what will i gain with false tears
nothin
when i cry i just want someone to comfort me
be their for me
thats what i hate about most of the friendships i had
i will confort them but they never confort me and when their tears have stopped and i have made them so much confident
they just leave me and forget me
i haven't talked to people for so long here well i do have the odd citter chatter but i forgotten how to have a decent conversation.
the only words i really know are hi and good bye
i think one day i will forget how to speak.
No one usually lets me get a word in but when i just don't bother
they think i am stupid or just being silly

My mum is blaming my so called craziness on the things i watch, listen or games i play.
She even thinks me wanting to talk to people i sorta know like Peachy & Origon
People i met here
people i find here
and talk to here
she thinks i am crazy coz of that!
If so i like being crazy.
And i will wish i never go sane.
guess i am crazy after all : )
sorry i guess this thing is quite weird so if anyone dares to read my entrys
i apoligize