my life

I long ago realized that I was in love. Not with just anyone. But the one, you know; the person you want to spend the rest of your life with. Yeah that person. Realizing what I need to live has been exceptionally easy. So far. But what is it when you have found your lifeline. The one thing that really keeps you alive. The thing that keeps you going. The thing that stops you from doing the wrong thing only because you can see their face in your mind. And you realize how much you would hurt them if you tried to do something so many times, but could not. I tried to end my life and as much as I tried to push her face from my mind. It stayed there and would not let me forget it. Forget how much I loved her. Wanted to be there for her. How much I wanted and needed to live for her. I realized how much it would hurt her. Especially when she found out it was because of her I died.