On the pressure of being perfect

Today i discovered something about myself. Due to personal experiences I had come to believe that I was a bad person, and because I was bad, no matter how much effort i put into things, I'd never do it well and I didn't deserve any recognition.

This made me live unhappily for a lot of time, and today i found that out. But I realized that I wasn't bad, I had defects because I'm a human being. It's only sufficient that my will is good, and it is because I don't want to harm anybody and I want to help people.

Well, today morning while I was thinking about this, I realized that it wasn't that people didn't love me, but because I thought that because I was bad, I didn't deserve to be loved... or accepted.

But now I've made a breakthrough! I accept myself, with qualities and defects, and this is who I am. The defects can be improved with time and effort, but not succeeding on the first try isn't bad, it's normal. As long as I want to improve, nothing else matters. God loves me and ACCEPTS me. That's what's important.

The moment I realized that, suddenly my life didn't feel so heavy. I felt lighter, and everything in my life seems much better.

It's incredible how attitude can change things. This made me realize something else: People go to witch doctors, psychics, etc, so they can "cure their chakras" or whatever and feel better about themselves, but it's not the chakras that don't work. It's their own mind, their view of themselves and the world that is distorted, and this is what causes them great pain. I think this is why Jesus said:
"The truth shall set you free"

I love you, Jesus!

Today I start a new chapter on my life! :anime:

 

Im a satanist, but im proud of you dear. You are no doubt my favorite human being ever. I love yah to death. I wish you were mah daddy!!! sooo bad. But mah momma is nasty and your gonnna be a priest! good luck friend!