proplems

Damn i reared up yesterday i almost kicked this kid i met along with his mate lucky for them someone heard me shouting insults and shit like that and came to carm me down and apporved that i would batter them and that werent joking because spot was pissing off at school i was sorta on the edge in other word if pissed off again i would autually react then with smooth talking why do people think my warnings are just jokes that wouldn't do nothing to them but just look sodding misarible tried 2 get myself drunk but it didn't work everyones right i'm going to probabaly do sucide or be killed before i'm 20 which is far i guess i been feeling misabaral these last load of days i wonder whats my problem stupid ain't it i don't even know myself what happened my life use to be so perfect u know but ever since the operations lose of my dad which i was close 2 i didn't get at all with my mum she thinks i'm the proplem i'm the 1 to blame 4 everything i guess shes right...............