Celebrations remember me?

Sorry to all m2a members, to those who don`t know me too, so many new members, i don`t make any difference, only hope i`m not bothering anyone by posting this

i`m not posting anymore, as you already have guessed, i probably disrespected some of you, mainly sailorvenus, i own you a lot, i`m really sorry...

Maybe these will be my last hours.... I`m so close to kill myself right now... i`m so close, but i just can`t bring myself to do it... i feel so much pain, unbereable, actually i don`t want to... Why am i posting this? i`m posting because i wanna share this "special" moment, i`ve met people where who made a big difference in my life, and that i missed posting here, talking to my friends here... hope nobody minds my self-esteem has decreased so much, i feel sory for those who have to bare me. Killing myself seems so tempting, would end all my pain, remember i told you guys about the airplane thing? we bankrupted, life just went DOWN... I`m tired of feeling sorry for myself, and all that is keeping myself to do it is that i believe i`m better than that, but my old ego(like legato`s, if he still has it), doesn`t exists anymore... i want a reason to stay alive, only one, but i can`t find any... it`s not worth living anymore, i don`t make any difference... so if you never heard of me anymore, i will be probably dead so don`t bother to answer, i might read them, but i might not answer. post it at your own risk:...

PS: skuld-chan your new master-piece is lovely. i love it

sorry about the grammmar errors, i don`t feel like re-reading...

 

Well Chupito I hope you read this..

Im not sure what has all happened to you these past few months.. But they are not the best of times for you.. But I have a Cousin who went through a period where she hated herself and felt the same way you did.. she wanted to end it all..

So she told me one day.. And i Did not sit back and let it happen. I told ppl who could help her.. Turned out she was in deep depression and needed someone to talk to and medical help. My mom went through depression as well. and they are better now.

So Chupito please go to your parents of another relitive and ask for help.. or even go to the doctor by yourself.. You need someone to talk to, someone to help you out.. Things may seem bad.. But we as humans survive.. we dont give up easaly. So please dont throw it all away.. Find someone to help you out.

KaMe

 

Please don't. It will hurt a lot of people. Even reading your post made me feel like ****. I'm not saying you did it out of spite or anything like that, I really hope that you read the response, and it might help you. Lot's of people feel really crappy a lot of the time, I know I do. A lot of the time I feel like it'd be a lot easier to kill myself, but I never actualy get cloe to doing it. I do something to cheer myself up, anything. If you're feeling lousy find something you like to do and do it. Anything. Talk to somone, it could help, even if you think you've got no one to talk to, just post here. People will understand. Things can get better. They will. Just hang on in there. Please.
I consider you to be one of my friends here, and I noticed your absense. If you stopped posting now I would be quite upset. ****, man. I don't know what else to say. I'll just say again, do something that you like, like watching an anime or something, it's why you came here after all, isn't it, talk to someone. Even if you think that people don't care, they will. If you feel like this, they will.
Please respond.

 

If you need someone to talk to I am here for you, just PM me But stay strong, no one on this earth deserves to die and especially not you because everyone has a future. And this future will take many hardships to reach, but you will become wise through everything that is happening to you and you'll be able to be there for others going through the same thing later Take your difficulties in life as tests, tests which will make you stronger and become an even greater person than you already are.


Here are lyrics to a song that help me out when I'm really depressed and upset with life...

Superchick - Not Done Yet

It's been one of those days for a lot of days now,
I need a day where the world can take care of itself.
This isn't what I wanted,
How I thought my life would turn out,
And I wonder if it's like this from here on out.

Sometimes life gets you, but we go on.
Sometimes life gets you, we're still going on.

We're not done yet,
not going quietly into the night,
Not me and my friends.
We're not done yet,
Don't take it too seriously,
It's just life
We'll win in the end.

And we walk on and on and on and on.
And we walk on and on and on.

It's been one of those days for too many days now,
I did a thing that I didn't want to do again.
I fell down in the place where I always fall down.
And I want to give up and let it be, what its been.

Sometimes life gets you, be we go on.
Sometimes life gets you, we're still going on.

We're not done yet,
Not going quietly into the night,
Not me and my friends.
We're not done yet,
Don't take it too seriously,
It's just life
We'll win in the end.

And we walk on and on and on and on.
And we walk on and on and on.

It's been one of those days, but I don't care now,
It was only a day, and tomorrow's ahead.
I got this far, and I know that I can ride this one out,
Though I want to lay down, but I won't quit yet.

Sometimes life gets you, but we go on.
Sometimes life gets you, we're still going on.

We're not done yet,
Not going quietly into the night,
Not me and my friends.
We're not done yet,
Don't take it too seriously,
It's just life
We'll win in the end.

And we walk on and on and on.
And we walk on and on and on.

We're not done yet,
Not going quietly into the night,
Not me and my friends.
We're not done yet,
Don't take it too seriously,
It's just life
We'll win in the end.

And we walk on and on and on and on.
And we walk on and on and on.

 

You’re to pretty to ummmm even think about killing your self (i remeber seeing your pic ^.^)

 

No, Chupito...what are you saying?! DL is right you'll hurt a lot of people...and one of them would be me...you've been a very good friend to me...probably the best online friend I'll ever have. I know life gives you a lot of pain, but this it's just part of it...God allows these things to happen for a reason. He wouldn't dumped loads of problems on you if he knows you couldn't take it...He does this because He knows YOU can handle it...

Please I beg you to reconsider...you could always talk to me...Hang in there okey? Don't do it...

I hope what I've said got a little meaning...

Mail me or PM me...you know I'll always be here for you...

 

You have so many reasons to stay alive. You have us. I won't say that much since it's probably more difficult to do things than to say things. But I suggest to find something specail worth liveing for since thinking of depressing things, is well depressing. Sorry I know kind of random, but well I guess I'm trying to say don't give up.

 

Chupito please don't say such things like words of killing yourself, it hurts just reading it. As many before have said, there's so many things you have to look forward to and this period of depression you're currently in is just clouding the hope of a future. Right now. you're just walking in a dark tunnel, confused which direction to head toward, but eventually, you'll see the light at the end of that tunnel.

Also, think of the people you'll hurt if the do this, your family, and friends. I would know because I had a friend who commited suicide.

Talk to someone about this, like your parents, they'll understand, and will be there for you because they love you. Or your friends, because they are truely your closest friend, they'll be there for at even the toughest of times, some with your parents/relatives. Or even talk to a trusted adult about these feelings you have.

I know my advice may be pretty weak but please don't do this to yourself

Also I'll open up my PM, and E-mail, if you need anyone to talk to or just release all those frustrated anger on some one, I'll be there.

-Uncle_Sweetie

 

Please, do not go, chupito.

I don't even know you, and I feel concerned.

I know how it feels really rough right now, but I know you can make it through this.

If you need someone to listen or talk to, you can PM me as well.



We are here for you, chupito.

 

I hope I'm not acting out of place here, but I was talking to Chupito on ICQ, and she says she's feeling better, largely thanks to the response here. Which is good. She also says that in her sig, but I'm posting this here just in case anyone fails to notice that. Just in case they were feeling bad, which I'm sure they were, to make them feel better. So. That is all.

 

OMFG. Dont kill yourself. Please, just, dont. Everyone gets depressed sometimes! Dark Times like those make the light times seem that much brighter! -sigh- Im sorry. Im really shitty at this. But just...like TG said, PM iffin you need to talk...Im glad to hear that DL sez yer feeling better, and I apologize for the lateness of this post, (I dont check Anno/Cele often >.<) and i apologize if none of this makes sense, but, in short, I care. Please dont do it, and hang in there. Better times are bound to be jsut around the corner.

 

sometimes words just arent enough...

and all ya need is a *HUG!!!*

just for the record though i love ya chicka and miss seeing ya round the boards *another hug for the road*

 

noooooooooo!!!!!!!!! I posted a big answer thanking everybody but my computer simply restarted... :anger2:
Thanks everybody for posting, those who know me and for those who don`t Thank you very much, i love you all^^ *hugs* I`ll try to pm everybody
see ya around the boards

 

Welcome back you Enishi-stalker you :anime: Im sorry that I didnt reply earlier because I never check the announcements forum. However, when I saw your name in the new posts. I had to say hi to you. :Hugs Chupito: Everyone had been through the depression stage where they feel lost and alone. I'm telling you that I've been upset about many things and the best solution is to confront those who hurt you. Another thing that makes me feel better is talking to my mom about my day. I really like doing that. She makes time for me and gives me advice on how to face my problems and so on . My advice to you is to talk to someone like your mom who you know would never pass her judgement over you. She would listen to what you have to say.

:anime: Chupito Im grabbing the opporitunity to have you on my msn list so here is my Email if you have msn.

 

Chupito I do the same thing all the time writing like a whole big essay then somehow it dissapers. I'm so glad that you are back, looking forward to seeing you back in the forums.

 

sorry for taking so long, i need to find a computer to use ¬¬
Thanks to all of you who posted really i'm glad you guys remember me and comsider me a friend
hugs

 

Dear Chupito: In case you're still feeling lonely, just know that you're not alone. I felt lonely too for many months, and I also wanted to die... since I don't believe in suicide, i just asked God to take me away...

so, I can understand you... perfectly. Well, I'm healed now So there is still hope... the pain won't last forever... *hugs* =)

There are many good friends in here... Sachiko, for example, helped me a lot and gave me the love that even my family couldn't... so don't feel lonely, we're always here to help you.

*smooch* *hugs* =)


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P.S. If you still need to talk, you can drop me an e-mail ANYTIME!
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