*sighs*.. I think I'm gonna get lost again.

Thinking if I should just end this now......
I would but I wouldn't want to hurt anyone....
friends back home dont really keep in touch with me...
lies flowing through my mind all over again and saying to myself if I should believe it what it says........
My bad side is comming again and I need someone to be there to reach out its hand...
I stand still while time passes fast...
I cant get any younger so why I'am here?
theres nothing to do but the regular routine....
same probelms over and over again, like the past just repeating itself for me.....
sitting here while I still think what to do about this life....
nothing is happening just the same old thing.......
I'm so tired of being a human and getting emotional....
still....evny people that already have their dreams come true with life....
still wanting that great body and beauty....
wishing for many great things for friends and family.......
I'm still confused about things still and probably always will....
feeling like life just forgot about me and left me there again in the dark.....should I really leave now or later?
my eyes are burning with painful tears, trying not to cry
my throat getting numb and trying to think happy things and not to showing weakness...
I have no idea why I'm still living here at this very moment..
I dont know if I'm gonna make it now.....sorry to dissappoint you my friends........I'll keep trying...that is the best answer I can give you..I think I should stop now....

 

hey chik..i know you hate me..but i've always had you as a freind in my heart..and i don't want you to do anything like that.. anyway.. take care

 

you stop...you break that promise you made to me...and im going to be damned if im oging to allow that to happen