*tearing my hair out* ohh shes the only one that makes me sane

Mom isnt back yet..gaw im scared. She gets really physco when i bring in bad grades. i mean she can make me miserable and hate everyone but she bitches when i bring in one F? WTF?

im so bored.. im waiting for her to get home..GOSH my nerves are like BAM BIOTCH..i dedicate this song to Jina

She seems dressed in all the rings
Vermillion ~ Slipknot
Of past fatalaties
So fragile yet so devious
She continues to see it
Climatic hands that press
Her temples and my chest
Enter the night that she came home
Forever
Oh (She's the only one that makes me sad)
She is everytihng and more
The solemn hypnotic
My Dahlia, you're bathed in posession
She is home to me
I get neverous, perversed when I see her to worse
But the stress is astounding
It's now or never she's coming home
Forever
Oh (She's the only one that makes me sad)
Hard to say what caught my attention
Vixen crazy, Aphid Attraction
Carve my name in my face, to recognize
Such a pheromone cult to terrorize
I won't let this build up inside of me
won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
(Yeah!)

I'm a slave, and I am a master
No restraints and, unchecked collectors
I exist throught my name, to self ablige
She is something in me, the darkness finds
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
SHE ISN'T REAL!
I CAN'T MAKE HER REAL!
SHE ISN'T REAL!
I CAN'T MAKE HER REAL!
(She isn't real, I can't make her real)
(She isn't real, I can't make her real)
My life
Qoute ~ Tiff, you look so sad all tha time. Smile once in a' while for meh k?
quote~ smile..pleaassse. Your face looks so pretty when you smile
quote ~ hey dealer, can ask you a question (yea) is there somethin goin on at home?
quote~ Tiffany come to my desk a minute (walks up there) hey anything going on outside of school really needs to stay outside, pull yourself together. I dont want to have to see you in my classroom again next year. * starts on about whats going on in HIS life and how he leaves it there when he teaches..
quote ~ TIFFANY DAWN HENRY YOUR FUCKING TEACHER CALLED AGAIN!! FROM NOW ON YOU BETTER FUCKIN GO TO SLEEP AT 6:00!!!
quote ~.. (me) what the hell are you looking at ( Shay) your face, did you cut yourself on your face? (no..of course not, really i didnt)
quote ~ if you ever need someone to talk to, ill always help

those few questions and things people said to me are always in my mind. Some have really made me think some have really pissed me off. But you know sometimes its better for people to put you down, but im happy right now if your wondering, im just a tad bit sick to my stomach

love dealer
last entry for today