The folly of Love

For some time I have been been bouncing back in forth from the folly of love.
I wonder if love is ever quite true..or if you can always depend on the other person. I myself have been in love and may still be in love. Michael Pettis, my first serious COMPLETLY serious relationship. I loved him and he still loves me. I can't explain how love feels like. I didn't think it'd be that..awesome. I thought about him every day, holding him close to my heart, looking into his eyes, kissing his lips, The way he sleeps with one arm above him and the other one some where on my body, the way he woke up and kisses me good morning (woke me up! <.<), how he helped me with everything. You know? It's hard to let go of someone you love, good thing I don't have to do it any time soon. WHAT would I do without Michael's loud snoring and glomp action!? The world may never know. And since I can't shoot for shit I need someone around to take me hunting during hunting Season!

Lovely suprises.

Another rant/discussion with myself. People are human. Some people never change. I myself am trying, I stopped doing Marijuana but i'm still heavily on pills. I'm starting to smile a little bit more. I go to bed earlier. I just am gradually changing and i'm proud of myself. Some people will try to make you think they're changing but it's just apart of their game. Don't believe them, don't be a fool. You'll end hurting yourself in the end.

I met another one of mom's random guys..and didn't speak to her the rest of the night..I hate her...so bad.


Love,
Peachy