True Identity

When I find it,
I'll get back to you
I don't know who I am what I am where I belong
I want to tell you everything I can, but I can't
I gotta keep secrets to myself, everything under covers
Hide the reality from the world, give as little as possible,
but at the same time, give as much as I can
I wanna tell you how I really feel, but I can't,
I gotta hide my feelings
I can't give you everything that I possibly can,
because that's just impossible, a bit too much

I don't want to be enveloped in lies anymore
I don't wanna be the one hurting
So I hope you understand what I'm sayin' because as much as I want to,
I don't wanna be the one telling you everything you want to know

So back off, back out of my life,
give me back what I had before,
I don't wanna deal with **** anymore

I don't care if you have feelings for me, for anyone,
for yourself, if you are envious, happy, or sad,
I just don't care anymore

Been hurt in the past too many times to care,
if I'm selfish, then I am.

I just don't ****ing care.
I'll live in a FANTASY if I have to
But I'm hoping that if I am getting too far into the fantasy world,
someone would save me from drowning