Unsure

Have there ever been a time when you just couldn't deal? or you thought life was to hard? I am sick and tried of stress. I have decided to go with the flow. Live stress free. It takes a lot to make me feel blue. But this past month I just don't know.

Work is a bummer. Changing that. I am just tired of that place. From now on it is all about the I and not the TEAM. They have messed with me for to long. The next time they do anything wrong I walk. I just don't care anymore.

Selling my place and moving into an apartment by December 1. I am so close to just packing it up and going to live in Flordia with my best friend. Then my reality comes back and haunts me. Maybe I should have done that years ago. Probably not a really good idea do to the hurrican. You see the prices of a tomato? $3.99 a pound. Do to the hurrican. Crazy. I just buy them in a can.

My health is apparently falling or could be. Well there is a 40 % chance I could be okay. I could be worse off also though. How do they give you a percentile? Is it kind of like this? Let's see here until we run more tests there is a chance you may not have what we diagnosed you with. Out of all the people that we have diagnosed with this 40% were wrong. I hate doctors. Well mine isn't to bad. I guess it's a bummer not knowing. But no matter what happens I just got to deal. Go with the flow I guess.

Relationships. I don't know. I make a decission and all of a sudden it changes. I guess go with the flow see where it takes me. Even though I probably shouldn't. Plus I don't want to lose this friendship. We agreed to never be werid towards each other.

My other best friend may be getting a divorce. She doesn't know wither or not she still loves her husband. He doesn't show any affection. She told hom that she had feelings for another man. She wanted to tell that guy to. I said she would be a big idiot if she did. She shouldn't have told her husband. Jealousy is love.

For some reason I keep on thinking of the Serenity Prayer or atleast the first few lines. "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change." I am not really religous.

 

Hah, I just finished Slaughterhouse Five, so I was like DubsTeeEff?