WHAT is wrong with me!?

im so tired..just argued with someone who didn't deserve it.
talking to ~!~Ja~!~ right now(NeoNoodle). I wish I just would have been nice and i would have been talking sweet to someone..made a new freind by the way.. Jackabee. Needs some help on some things though.
I would appreciate if ya'lld help.. wow im being so nice lately.. talking to people i hate ..not cheating any more..or lying..(yet)..cussing people out for the sake of others..im not like that ppl. Ive never been "nice", I just came off that way when ya'll first met me.."O hi! Nice to meet you! Id love to chat!"..sound familiar. The only people that really know me is Noodle, Kaiyon, Gensai, , and Moose..to be honest i've been acting for the rest of ya'll..im sorry everyone..but it seems like everyone else is coming clean about their actual idenity and every thing else. So why shouldn't I? So some things you should know..everyone at school calls me dealer to pick on me for one..cuz i've got the name to be a drughead..people are scared because Mike and my freinds ARE dealers, and they beat people down all the time..and me meh, i just beat the lil people up who they say are not worth it..im awful some times.. that girl I got expelled for..the reason i told you was true..but that wasn't completly it. That I will tell you in person..for it is pretty graphic, and stupid..You know i can try to change..but will that help any!? Think of all the people i've already hurt..won't change anything at all..just make them think im acting again..well this is long cuz im thinking and i just decided to write my thoughts down..i screw everyone's Bf at school..or at least flirt..i whine all the time about my dad. I cry all the time, im not strong i just do things half the time to stay that way..o well my confessions...are over..thats me..take it or leave it..have a good night ppl.. <*>...<(sun) see ya 2morrow!

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