Why am I so....

Attention Deficit? I isn't as though I am the United States government.

I say good luck to black nyoko with being a lawyer. Some one once said to me that I could be a lawyer.... THAT'S WAY TOO MUCH WORK FOR SOME ONE SO ADD.... and she of all people should have realised it. But what do I know. Gah I hate it. I have so much potential, and yet I waste it. I hate being this ADD. T_T

Incedently, this is partially why I never would want to have a child. There appears to be some genetics behind being ADD. It's very rare to see an ADD child that doesn't have at least one ADD parent. I feel that I am a magnification of some of my parents worst features... bad eye sight and ADD just to name a few... but also some of their better ones as well, my temperment and my smarts. But all that could easily be debated, seeing as how it is incredibly hard to say that any of that is genetically determined, well except perhaps bad eye sight. I strongly feel that they have influenced me both through nature and nurture though. I just think DNA is one of the factors. I really don't want to bring in some one like me. I have suffered enough and I wouldn't want to have some one else suffer. That and I'm pretty sure that I would get along with any one that was too much like me.

This brings up another issue, WHAT IN THE WORLD GIVES ME THE IDEA THAT ANY RELATIONSHIP I COULD HAVE WOULD LAST THAT LONG? Perhaps me not believing that such a thing could happen is exactly what holds me back.... NAH. I mean come on, please. My moods are fickle and can cut just as much as anyone else's. And what's the deal with people callin' me pretty... I have my doubts on that too. Even if I was pretty or whatever, you still would have to deal with my personallity, oh let's not go there today. I think that perhaps I am most annoying when I get this idea in my brain that I am somehow better than others... ECH the worst thing ever. I mean where on Earth do I get that idea? Ugh. Other flaws include: waiting till the last minute to do things, forgeting things both unintentionally and otherwise, being so dam untidy(you do not want to see my room), not finishing things...

Well I need to go, so... later guys.