Ok I have keep this from a lot of people, even my boyfriend and family, even my belovd friends, but no i can stop my self. It all started when i lost control of every thing, and lost my self in drugs, and the thrill of gettinbg away with everything. He frist came to me as just a voice, then as a blurr but when i blacked out and found my self somewere i didnt know with people i didnt know, i knew he was realy. I tried to contain him for as long as i could but the walls of his prison have been weaked and now he's there, right there with open warm arms telling me things that i wish were real. I tell him to shut up but he dosent stop he just keeps going, he told me his name about 3 years ago when i was 14, his name was damian, i think im made but then anna showed up, and then theres derrian i think hes my twin i dont know, but when damian becomes to much derrian takes care of him. ive got no clue what to do, no one will retrun my calls, my mother thinks im nuts , and mike my bf thinks im just using it to get out of truble and not take resposablity for what i did. but i do, i think i mite leave him and go over to shadowpaw,(sam) he seems to love me even yhow im crazy. but do any of you know how i can stop the fighting in side my head? ive got to do homework then go in to tulsa ahahaha i hate owasso so much.
In all honesty I've doubted most of what you have said on this bored, but for ****s and giggles I'll say this. Go get some help. Like serious professional help. If you are indeed sincere about this and it's not some bullcrap scheme to vie for attention, then that is most likely the best choice. As far as I've heard, if you are seriously as mentally ill as you claim to be, it's not something as simple as just stopping or telling them to go away. It'll probably take years of therapy, medication and in all possibility you most likely won't be able to get rid of these "voices" or "personalities" permanently. This much should be fairly obvious. But of course most people in your situation are ignorant and have little interest in seeking help and think that they can handle it on their own. But, hey, whatever. Only hurting yourself, unless you're full of ****.
UMMM YEA....TRY TO GET INTO SOMETHING THAT YOU LOVE....LIKE A SPORT OR GAME U LIKE..SEE IF ITS POSSIBLE TO SWITCH SCHOOLS AND JUST START OVER W/ NEW PPL....MOVE OR SOMETHING....JUST TAKE IT EASY. AND IF UR BF ISNT LISTENING 2 UR REAL PROBLEMS MAYBE U SHOULD JUST FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL. I HAD VERY BAD PROBLEMS BUT SOFTBALL HELPS ME GET RID OF SOME MISPLACED ANGER. JUST TAKE MY WORD FOR IT AND BELEIVE IN YOURSELF...POETRY & MUSIC MIGHT ALSO BE A WAY TO LET YOUR FEELINGS OUT....TRY IT & SEE WHAT WORKS. * and if u dont mind me asking...what do u believe in? Like your religion? ( i wont try to convert you or anything strange like that. im honestly just curious...dont tell me if u feel uncomfertable, just 4get i asked...kool?
Okay, I'm going to be completly honest here. I'm a nice guy, and however unbelivable it may sound, I'll see where it takes us. I'm gonna stick to what you say, messed up life, yadda yadda yadda, with of course, a couple of questions. Why don't you go see a doctor? What kind of mother think her own daughter is nuts? Especially when (and I quote) "your mother abuses you mentaly and sometimes hits you", who is she to call you nuts. And maybe who knows, you are nuts, since even though he did bad things, you said "then my step cousin raped me over and over again, till i drove a knife in his heart", I don't think driving a knife in someone's heart is very sane in the beggining, and if you do have a split personality, how would you be aware of it. In most situations, the second personality is the extreme opposite of the original host. And even if Daimian or whatever did it, actually did that, how are you aware of it. Also, why would you brag of killing someone in such a, how do I put this....detailed and dramatic way? It all sounds kind of too out of context. I'm not an expert, but I can tell you this. And I did say that I'm going to take your word, and I do. There's two kinds of people you need, cops, and doctors, you decide which one to get first, but the other one follows directly after, I guarantee it. Best of luck, and feel free to tell me how it all goes. -Seishin
yea i know its hard to belive but i don realy care cuse, i told you cuse i know no one from this bored will care just ignore me or talk to me about it, and my stepdads cusion that raped me got what was coming for him, the cops new that, i got a slap on the hand and truned away. my mother dosent care and as of monday donna is now my mom. and i know about damian cuse my friends tell me, pluse ive got me truning in to damian on tape, its not pretty, hes a ass hole to every one and only wont sex......all the time........i hate it. what i belive in was god a long time ago but know i belive in what i know and i know that im crused, yea yea i know now one crused but hey i when to the a doc yesterday and they said with like a few years of seeing him and meds ill be ok, ive got my meds and i fill alot better...i cant even spell the name of what im taking its all long and werid. and mike slaped me last nigth so im leaving me and that should de me good?
No offense, but I doubt anyone who can't see very well has made it to these boards. Anyway, I've heard this a hundred times from teens who want attention, and once from someone who I actually think does hear things. The one who does, he said it in passing while we were on the subject, and I never heard it again. He's completely in control of himself, and leads a normal life. He's a little "out there", but then again, so am I. This looks a loooot like a cry for attention... but if it isnt, good luck with that. Meds are a bit like swatting some annoying flies and ignoring the trash heap that's attracting them. You'll always be buying more unless you can learn to deal with it without them.
I'm a mean person. I will not lie to you. And everytime I read one of these bullshit threads you throw together, I wonder why you're still here. I wonder why you're still here AND why you keep posting innane and often repetitive threads. "My life is pathetic and everything is wrong with it and I'm so emo." Blah blah blah. Grow the **** up. I usually allow newbies their time to situate and grow out of their idiotic tendencies but you are the worst. Call this a flaming but I'm done with the whole teenage drama garbage. You want respect? Earn it. If I see one more post like this, I might just quit the site. This place is getting quite small of number and it's mostly due to people like you who have nothing to do with what the site is based off of. Japanese culture, you know anything of it? Got anything creative to talk about concerning actual topics? No. So shut up and die.
0o.. I didn't notice that part. I think, if everything you say is true, (and I guarantee that if I asked, you'd say you tried calling the cops on him, but they did nothing. Either that or you were too afraid. Either way, I'm going to assume that'd be the truth here.) then you did the the wrong thing. Should've gone for an organ that doesn't have all that bone around it, and done it a lot sooner. If you're not telling the truth... Be more careful about your lies. That particular one could really cause you trouble if you're not lucky.
look i messed up when i was writing it and im growing up alot, so you wont hear anyof this **** any more. and Chance, go **** your self your the emo, im to damn happy for this place anyway, but wtf ever ive got some friend on hear. this place has gone to hell, and the meds, yes im off and yes im doing better. but who cares
Hey kid, zip it. Why you don't you go stab your cousin again, you pathological liar? All you are is talk, and you can't even back that up. So, get over yourself and get a life. By the way sunshine, you probably need your pills. Hence they put you on them in the first place.
Although I agree, whole-heartedly, with pretty much everything you've said, it's probably a better idea that we just let this whole thing go. She is most likely a compulsive liar, and I tried to be fairly tolerant of most of her crap. But for now I'm just going to report this thread and see if we can get this closed because with her childish and attention-craving immaturity and your retorts, this will go on a while. :\
i wish i could have not been near a damn computer when i was drunk and typing this, but who gives a care you to ant as bad a nep was*shuders*he was the devil, ive grown and im not going to lower my self by talking to poeple like you i wish i could close this damn thread but i cant. but who gives a flip, im out .
why must you poke the dead thread? let it die... dude you pulled it put from the grave just to poke it? god stop, im not proud of this, im very ill as it is, now please leave the dead thread alone and let the thing die.
Hrm, if you look, the thread had been quiet for 5 hours. Hardly dead, in a place like this. Compare that to your post, which is a full day after mine, and after saying you were done with it twice. Anyway, I've made the point I wanted to, so I'm done with this thread.
I normally dont agree with the way you word things but this time i have to make an exception. Get help. And why is that No0b writing with such large font.:anger:
Ok. Got my glasses..Now I read everyone's posts and your post. It's not really my place to tell you your full of **** because..I don't really "know" you. If this..umm wow is really true. You seriously need to do something with yourself and make a change. I have a motto in my life "The past is a *****!" Now with the other stuff. Go talk to someone. Get locked up. That's what I do when I need help. The really crazy people (like me for example ) can't get help like regular people do. (therapists, doctors, etc. whatever) Get put in a clinic untill you fix yourself. It's kinda blunt but best way to go about that.
Step One, get a gun. Step Two, shoot yo.... Joke of course. Really, I don't think asking people on the internet about your mental health problems is a very smart idea in the first place. Seek real help, from real people ( Real as in people you can actually make one on one contact with) I think that would probably be your best bet.
