Recreation Did you ever...?

At least I know that I have someone to count on to bust me out.

Sounds a lot like my mom...

 

Everyone gets depressed at one point or another. Everyone. No acceptions.

I'm not going to say I hope you feel better. I'm going to say I know you'll feel better. You rock reign-of-dreams, and there's nothing in this world that's gonna change that.

there's lots of things worth living for. If you need a list I'll happily make you one.^^

 

Reign_of_Dreams this is for you, i hope you are felling better and all if you ever need a friend just PM me.

 

Thanks, Raven. Wow, I guess people CAN be nice...
Well, I've been feeling a little better (thanks to everyone's kind words) and I really do dread going back to school. Nothing to go back to except my corner. Oh well. Thanks everyone who took the time to post.

 

I'm an escape artist, my friend, and I've watched Silence of the Lambs numerous times (MUH HA HA HA) and I can pick locks. As for orderlies, I'll kick their asses.

 

-_-;;

My way is simple. It's known as the olive branch method.

When in a situation dealing with many people (e.g., school, work, everyday life) offer a sign of peace, known as the 'olive branch', but keep a 'brick' (verbal defense) hidden behind your back. If they throw a 'rock' (insult you) stick up for yourself by verbally whipping them. I do.

As for obsessive things, I've learned to do things in moderation, and to be easy-going about it.

 

i havent been with the pills or the therapy stuff, but i am depressed...i havent really told anyone in my family because i am not that kind of person to just come out and say things like that..but i have started to cry for no reason and i just kind of try to avoid it so no one will notice....i dont want them too either...i dont want to talk to my parents about it or my sisters...so i just keep to myself about it..i am also kinda paranoid about talking to people...i am always afraid they wont like me anymore...even if i have known that person for life..i am just weird about that one


i am glad that you are getting better Quisty and i am happy that you are feeling better Reign-of-Dreams

 

you should pretend to be happy around your perents so they don't hopitalize you thats worse then even haveing depression it will only make it worse if they send you there.even if its hard it will be worth it you might even start to like the feeling and start to become as silly as just about a normal person.
good luck i hope we can all pull our selves out of depression it dosent help with our life

 

so I guess your bipolar. I know tons of ppl who are like that, my b/f is one of them. so when did you start taking the pills?

 

Re: Re: Did you ever...?

Wow. That will REALLY help, pretending to be fine so they dont send you some where for help..... lets just have an ickle think about this shall we?

Do the people who are saying "Hospitals dont help" have ANY first hand experance of it?

I can only speak for one Irish hospital from first hand experance, and i can honestly say that it does indeed help, quite alot. But (major but) you have to want to get better and work with them not against them.

 

For a few weeks now. I really haven't been keeping time.
And about pretending to be happy...I don't know. I don't think I should. I think that it will only make me feel worse. I've been flashing illusionary smiles for people all of my life and I'm sick of it. I'll try to be happy occasionally, when so many people around me are happy but even they're happy faces doesn't make me feel better. Sometimes, seeing so many people happy makes me sad. It's people. That's my problem, I have a problem with people. They just always disappoint me and make me sad so I've adjusted with it and adopted this theory that people will always hurt and betray so I've accepted it and severed all bonds with friends whom I loved so dearly at one point. I know that all people aren't bad and that there are some damn good ones out there but for now...I just want to look at the world through my eyes. I've felt this way for a long time. I always felt different from my friends who were always so happy and I tried my best to try to be like them so I took part in the masquerade my whole life while my true feelings lay dormant within me. I realized who I am now though. I'm the girl who has to take pills every day to make everything okay. I'm the girl who sits in her room and wonders why the tears are running down her face. I'm the girl who wants to be happy but at the same time, doesn't want to get better. I've accepted this and I'm trying to get better for my happier half but I'm still miserable for the other half of me. I just...I just can't act happy anymore...I just can't.

 

I have pretended to be happy b/c I can tell sometimes when I am sad around ppl I can be a downner so I try and act all happy. Even online I may seem all hyper but sometimes I am not.

I have been taking pills for 3 years now and now I need to take a blood test and EKG to get more pills b/c my weight got bad b/c of the other pills so I need new pills to help it out :dizzy2:

I lost a lot of friends to this stupid OCD I have and those pills have helped me and I have made new friends (Lady Sahdow-San, Mog, That Guy!)

The only friend that stuck by me all the way was Naru we had times where we took time off from being friends but she has always been there for me. My new friends help me a lot too, infact That Guy! once saved me from doing something stupid.

I have even called that help phoneline after my mom said some mean stuff to me about me.

 

Ya, I seen a therapist several times in my life.
First time I seen one was when I was like in 5th grade. My teacher noticed I been down lately and called my parents telling them I should seek some counsel. I met with some freak child shrink, and he said I was suffering from depression; which was pretty rare for kids my age to have, so he said. That year was also the first time I would beat the **** out of some kid, who been bugging me since the 3rd grade, because I was different.

Then in the 8th grade, I met another shrink for a day because I was screaming obscene language and threats while chasing kids down the hall.

Then in 11th grade I was caught by police for attempting to beat the **** out of a kid with a wooden board. The judge was lenient because it was my first major offence and sentenced me to many hours of community service and a group therapy session to help suppress anger, I just called it 'Anger Management' but because there was a freaking licensed shrink they thought it would be better to get all high and mighty and call it a 'group therapy session'

and recently in the 12th grade, I was caught writing a threating note, which they somehow deciphered as if I was threating to kill my F*CKING English teacher. I was suspended for 3 days then 2 weeks then extended to 2 F*CKING Months. I'm not even in the F*CKING YEARBOOK, it's like I never did F*CKING SH*T. Anyways, I had to meet up with this F*CKING shrink every F*CKING wednesday, I was also put on prozac and all sort of different pills because I had a small sign of depression.

I never thought of killing that F*CKING English teacher, but if I was to ever meet that F*CKING B*TCH again, I would definetely F*CKING kill that MOTHERF*CKING DIKE.

 

*rereads reign's and c0ke's entries* you poor people! at least your mom, who has no training as a shrink, tries to be your shrink! my school called my mom because of these scars on my face and arms, nevermind i had had them for years. my mom tells them i inflicted them on myself! then she starts going through my stuff in my room looking for god knows what. then she went and got me some kinda medicine thats supposed to make me 'feel better'. i was like wtf? im not sick! (she still thinks im mentally disturbed)

 

Wow, so many people seem to be depressed now. I'm quite a happy person, but sometimes I just cry myself to sleep. crying always makes me feel better, sometimes I dun even kno why i'm crying but afterwards, but I feel much better. I guess it's cause most of my friends are going suicidle n' stuff. I dunno what to do and I just sit there and cry I feel like I failed them as a friend somehow, and it's my fault. But, now, I've made a deal w/ my self to talk to them at least once a day be it IM or in the flesh that way, if they feel like crap they know they can talk to me, and they don't have to hurt themselves. I'm not saying I'm a shrink or anything, hell, I've got enought problems figuring out myself!Anyway's if you're ever bored or anything IM me(sugahighmuffin) I'm always around and I need some friends, a whole like 4 friends doesn't help my emotional system, unlike Reign-Of-Dream people always make me happier. and I know you all will feel better soon!

 

heh, my shrink would have a whole file cabinet on me after one session, let me tell you.

 

hehe this kewl game might cheer u pplz up.... Happy Pill Game

 

I've seen people just crack under certain circumstances.. I'm not going to start giving stories though. I've almost done it too over Star Wars cards ^^;;;; (you know who I'm talking about BMS)

I'm usually a happy person, and if someone insults me I just laugh it off. Though I have times where I'm seriously depressed and I just let out my anger on whoever is unlucky enough to make me reach my boiling point. I have been trying to work on this but I have been unlucky.. it's mostly because I was raised to not have temper tantrums I'm guessing so I've always been afraid to let out my anger regularly.

The root of most anger/negative feelings that I've seen in people is that they have been treated unfairly by other people. I feel like total crap right now, I've been working in the corn fields as a job and the people I'm working with are total jerks and have been badgering me constantly... I'm not saying what I want to do in vengeance, either -_-# Just what I have to say is to not let people like that get to you. To insult another person to bring up one's own social status is the most dishonourable thing a person can do.